I understand how thoughts create our lives. I get the concept of making sure we choose happiness and when things don’t go our way, to quickly shift our thoughts. I also understand what we resist persists. If we focus on what we don’t want, it continues to stay in our lives.
So how has my previous thought processes and choices contributed to where I am today? I realized that since I was a teenager, I did focus on what I didn’t want in my life. Things I would say to myself consisted of, not having a belly (which I have now), being overweight (which I am now), obsessed about food (which I have been) and those are just related to my health.
The good news is that I know it’s about focusing on what I do want ALL the time. When I catch my thoughts going in the wrong direction, it’s about quickly turning them around. I was writing in my journal what I do want. Living a healthy life, a life of moderation, activity, happiness and being at a healthy weight. I continuously recite words of affirmation daily to ensure it gets deep into my subconscious because turning around 30 years of negative programming takes a while. Even if I don’t believe it right away, it will take hold. I have already noticed changes. Changes in my behavior towards those I love and even just one off situations where I notice positive affirmations overtaking the old negative thoughts. It’s awesome and I feel great about it. My life is so much more peaceful.
But I can’t help thinking when it will start to change how I treat my body, how I eat and how I listen to my body. Today, I know when I’m hungry but I’m still not good at shutting down when I’m full or I don’t listen and keep eating. When I fully respect, love and am connected to my body, I will automatically do what’s right for my body. It’s one area I’m looking to receive change. I’m ready to let go and relearn to trust myself, trust my body to inherently show me what I need to do to take care of it. I was reading a book on body signals and it was talking about how human beings have gotten so far removed from body connection. If we stopped thinking so much and listened more to our bodies, we wouldn’t need diets. Diets actually cause distrust in our ability to physically tell us what it needs all the time. When I read this, I thought, wow, that is so true!
I’m on a journey to reconnect with my body and trust again. When this happens, a new world will be born. What a wonderful thought!