One of the things I’ve been working on is mindful eating or intuitive eating. When I make the food myself, sit down at the table, thank the food and eat it without distractions it’s a different experience. It also includes taking the time to actually taste the food and enjoy the food. When I do, the meal is much more pleasurable.
The key is having the time. While in the day to day bustle of a full time job, running around going to various activities, it’s an accomplishment when we can sit down as a family to enjoy a healthy meal. What I am doing now to maximize my time is to plan menus ahead and cook or prep dinners ahead. Sometimes it’s worked out very well and other times I’ve come home and the food I had planned to make went bad because I waited too many days to make it. But I’m learning new techniques as I go which helps.
Another focus is understanding where I am emotionally and psychologically from day to day. For the days I’m in a good mood and high energy, I’ll do well to take my time and it feels great. However, when I’m not feeling the best (like when BFF is visiting) or it was a stressful day at work, I’m less likely to take the time to do anything. In fact, I find myself reaching for food to ‘relax’ which is not the best choice to change my emotional state.
It happened this past week. I had some incredible moments of remaining present, preparing meals ahead and taking the time to enjoy them. It was awesome! However, there were other moments where I rushed, didn’t really taste the food and went searching for more because I felt I ‘needed’ it. The good news is I’m fully aware and can specifically point out the different times this happened.
One of the things I did not do this past week was exercise. Exercise has always been a big part of my life. I started yoga again last week and because of BFF, I talked myself out of doing it this week. It seems as though my ego does a great job ‘coddling’ me when BFF is here. Honestly, it’s not doing me any favors and I realize it.
But, i’m committed to this journey of becoming aware of these unhealthy patterns of behavior I learned over the years. I know it takes time to change but it can be done and there’s no rush. I feel so much better emotionally than I’ve ever felt in my life. I feel stronger, more peaceful and I experience joy all the time now. It’s not situational or dependent on others. It’s just an overall sense of peace and joy and that’s the best of all. I’m on my way and I feel it every day.