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Slow and Steady Healing

It’s been 25 days since I’ve eaten sugar or flour.  I haven’t had any physical cravings at all since the first week. Probably because I’ve been eating whole foods that fill me up more than ever. I have never eaten this much food before.  I remember years ago when I was on WW, I would try to fit in the ‘good foods’ with my points, basically eating less to keep enough points to eat ice cream later in the day.  But that sacrifice did not provide the appropriate nutrients to keep me healthy. Yes, I lost weight, but I didn’t necessarily do my body a favor in the long run nor did I learn the right way to eat to sustain a healthy body.  The WW program has since changed significantly which probably was because so many other people were doing the same thing. I didn’t think about it back then, I was just thinking about getting in those foods I craved the most, cookies, cakes and ice cream because I was addicted to them.

Without those foods, I’ve been feeling good, losing weight and it’s been nice to feel ‘in control’ again.  For roughly 2 years, I had given up on my health because I wasn’t seeing progress. I would go on a diet, lose a few pounds, stop losing and then nothing. I would become frustrated and binge saying to myself, ‘Nothing works!’.  This time around, I have so much more hope because I’m taking things very slow and seeing a difference. My first order of business was to get off sugar and flour, focusing on eliminating the cravings for those foods I was addicted to and so far it’s been nice. I even forgot to eat lunch one day!!

However, handling emotions is key.  Things have been occurring in my life where the emotions come on strong. In the past, I would quickly reach for food and binge to alleviate those emotions to feel better quick.  Lately, I haven’t been doing that, so I’ve had to come up with new ways to work through them.  The good news is because I focused on improving my emotional intelligence for the last few years, I’m noticing a difference in how I’m handling them than I ever have in the past.  It’s a new concept for me.  Since I’m not eating to deal with the emotions, they are significantly heightened and I have to face them now.  I’m not going to say I’m a 100% there, but I’ve definitely come a long way. It’s a little overwhelming, but I’m taking things day by day. Thankfully, I have a support system of friends and family I can call on and it helps.

As I continue healing, I will take it one step at a time. In the past, the perfectionist attitude would have me take on so much at once that there was no other option but to fail. This time around, I’m doing things a lot slower. Focusing on a few things helps keep it all manageable. Yes, I’m sure there are so many other things I have to do to heal, but for right now, this is working. So I’ll continue to focus on that and forget the rest (for now).

Making my health a priority

It’s been an interesting week.  BFF is here and on time as usual. It explains my emotional roller coaster last week.  I’m on day 11 not eating sugar or flour.  I feel okay but it’s hard to say how much it’s impacted my health because it’s so early.  I’m not experiencing physical hunger. The food I’m eating (whole grains, veggies, lean protein) keeps me satisfied for the day. I was feeling very tired yesterday and believe its because of BFF right now and why I ate some ‘Mary Gone Crackers’ (flax crackers) last night.  I didn’t have it planned but it satisfied the ‘crunch’ that I was looking for all day.  I’m wondering if those types of cravings eventually disappear with time.

Time – that’s the key.  It took me 20 years to get to this point, I know it’s going to take time to get used to eating this way for the rest of my life and ultimately ‘reset’ my body to where it’s supposed to be.  I may have to give up caffeine but I’m not doing it just yet. I have made a huge shift and I think if I add another major one it will add too much at once. It’s going to have to wait until I get used to this initial shift first . But, I noticed when I drink caffeine, my skin gets agitated.  It’s got to be the acid. I’ll look to drink decaf at some point. However, for now, I’m going to continue to be aware of what’s going on with my body.  I have lost some weight, although I feel bloated this week because of BFF, but overall I feel good.

For so long, I’ve been ‘waiting’ for the right time to ‘work on my health’. It’s funny because back in 2011, I made a major move to ‘work on my health’.  But I never realized it had to start with my mind. I was so unaware back then (and it’s only been a few years). I thought for sure I would figure out what I needed to do to lose weight, but what happened was so much more and for that I’m eternally grateful. I learned about my mind and my feelings and how they are connected. I learned how my thinking was causing my current reality.  If I never learned all of that, I wouldn’t be where I am today which is facing reality as to why I’m overweight, how it began, how my thinking and resulting behaviors contributed to an unhealthy body.  If I didn’t gain that knowledge, I would be on another diet again, failing and wondering why I’m gaining and losing the same 10 lbs when I have over 50 to lose.

This is the focus in my life right now. Everything else is on the periphery. I’m okay with that because I have been wanting to focus just on this and yet, things seemed to get in the way. Not this time. I’ve got weight to lose and a body to transform. I cannot do that when distracted with so many other things in my life.  Of course, those distraction were cause by me making those other things a priority over the true priority which is my health. I also know, doing this will help me achieve one of my other goals – being a role model for my son which I believe is going to be the case as I go through this transformation.